And so it draws to a close....

I'm going to say out of sight, out of mind :) but I wish I didn't get emotional hemorrhaging with such alarming regularity. It's certainly not healthy. And I even made a mix tape.

I wonder where this whole hedonism thing ends....

Oh, and I'm going down the coast tomorrow, then staying down in Melb for work at the tennis. Which is either going to be awesome, or totally lame. Hopefully I at least get paid lots of moneys. So I guess I'll next post in 2 weeks or so. Look, I can see everyone (read: no-one) panicking haha. Bye :)

Like in the song.

"Yeah, you don't know what is like when you try, and you try, and you try, and you try, and you don't ever get there! Because you were born perfect and I was born like this, and you're perfect!"

Oh, to have a heart.

"Prepare to put mustard on those words, for you will soon be consuming them along with this slice of humble pie, that comes direct from the oven of shame set at gas mark egg on your face."

- Maurice Moss

Oh no :(

Forgive me for one moment, while I break my own cardinal rule of blogging which is don't be a sook and whinge about my stupid life problems.

But I'm in a serious case of lust. And have only been in this state for less than a week. It came on scary fast, and it's like a mini relationship in that I have gone from being so ecstatically happy that I felt like my face would melt off with pure joy, to wanting to take a hammer to my skull just to forget that I could feel like this. It is hell. And I wonder if this is what love feels like, because....it kind of seems nothing what love should be like. All my standards and things I am sure about are being questioned :(

I'd give him a day off.

Summer days

If you wait, I'll give all my aches to you
Take the chance, to ignore what you're going through
My cold hand, is there for you to take
(If you leave, can I fall down?)
I'm your Berlin Chair, won't you lean on me 'til I break?

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.

Okay, okay.

I lied. I care. A lot.



"Look at me, jerking off in the shower... This will be the high point of my day; it's all downhill from here."

- Lester Burnham

NRMA

They saved my butt tonight. I was in West Albury and my battery raped itself. Which was a shame since I was having a very nice time sitting in the car with Matt. So he had to rush off back to where he was staying and I snoozed until Mr. Road Service showed up.

Matt is nice. I've known him for 48 hours and he wrote his number on the back of a keno ticket and gave me the TAB receipt where he bet on a horse called "Girl With Promise". I know that I ought to be cynical. But you know even if that's all it is, I think that's just great.

happiness will get you in the end.

I don't care what anyone says, I totally rate 1980's music and synthesisers.

Adorable creatures

Temptation

With unacceptable features

Temptations

Trouble is coming

Temptation

Just the high cost of loving

Temptation

You can take it or leave it

Temptation

But you better believe it


Was talking to a guy I met at work last night about these. Gary Larson is highly amusing in my opinion.

2010.

I should be excited. But it just feels the same old same old.

I went to Falls Festival, and it was pretty fun. The Yeah Yeah Yeah's were spectacular and Moby should have had the 12 o'clock set. I'd go back, to do things differently.

I want to be excited for 2010. So I'm going to be, 2009 was such a weird year.