and there's gold falling from the ceiling of this world
falling from the heartbeat of this girl
falling from the things we should have learned
falling from the things we could have heard

Tie Up My Hands

Thankyou Pachel and Boring, for allowing your creativeness to rub off on me, a creative retard.

A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you’re a great guy, but I don’t like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we’re not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we’re going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn’t work out, we’ll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.

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I'm making a happy list to counteract my negative blog. I may have had a few gins. Note to self: stop drunk blogging

- gin
- not forgetting to shut my window before I go to bed
- panda cam
- tea in a high school musical mug
- blogging :)
- cancelled tutorials
- milo cereal
- a&j stone

Do you ever worry that deep down you're not happy, and you're doing the wrong thing, and do you become terrified that you'll never find something that makes you happy and you'll be sad and bitter forever?

I do.

Oh and the funnies for today are:

We had fluoro party last night, which consisted of wearing a white t-shirt, getting drunk and scrawling on each other. A maturity level such as mine guarantees profanity galore. I ensured that everyone had "I love fellatio" written several times over in their chestal region. I on the other hand, had a helpful list of synonyms, for the word vagina, on my t-shirt. Care for a look?

Snatch, taco, ma chatte, pussy, muff, beaver, beef curtains, fuck hole, windy valley, box, cunt, minge, twat, gash, slit and my personal favourite, axe wound.

Don't tell me you're ever stuck for dinner table conversation topics.

Mini-break

The long weekend was over as of last night at 12am. Depressing or what. I had class at 8.30am but continued to act as if I was in fact STILL on holidays by not going. I will however go at 3.30, and this is what we refer to as a COMPROMISE. And that kids, is what adults do.

I'm really tired, but I would love to go see The Frowning Clouds tonight, but I'm super tired and super poor and Groovin' The Moo will not help either of these situations.

I'm going to nap before class. And in the meantime I'll try to grow some artistic ability.

I apologise

But...the fact of the matter is...

I'm drunk

Guilty Pleasures

Just add it to my ever growing list of "Things That Ruth, Despite Risking Social Ostracism, Openly Admits To Liking", right after High School Musical and The Brady Bunch.



Sorry about all the Youtube. I haven't got any cute new photos to show y'all. I'm getting the party cam out again tonight so hopefully soon!

Helen: Quinn! What is that thing on your arm?!
Quinn: Don't worry Mum, it's fake!
Daria: Aww, you got a tattoo to match your personality.

Post #100

“I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you.”

AND DON'T MAKE A MESS!

Amen sister.

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

Janey: I knew it. That's a line from "She's All That". I masturbate to that movie.
Jake:(to Molly Ringwald) Do you mind?
Molly Ringwald: Not at all, I think masturbation is very healthy.

Mixtape #1

The first one is in homage to Splendour '10. I don't know why I'm exacerbating the situation because I'm still in a deep depression because I have absolutely fuck all chance of going, and I cannot even be bothered being optimistic because I still know July 30th will roll around and I'll want to bury myself in a hole and cry.

I hope BRMC do a sideshow.



1. New York City Cops - The Strokes
2. Lien On Your Dreams - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
3. You've Got The Love - Florence and the Machine
4. Here Comes Your Man - The Pixies
5. Give In To My Love - Paul Kelly
6. Ain't No Room - The Vines
7. Coca Cola - Little Red
8. Going To The Casino (Tomorrow Night) - Philadelphia Grand Jury
9. Killer - Whitley
10.Clean White Love - Lisa Mitchell


Okay, that was gay.

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Tuesday afternoon, chilly.

I really over-extended myself on the weekend, and am now suffering the consequences of no down time. Am going into the city after my Japanese class to get party cam photos and if they're any good, they'll end up here. And I'm getting Grill'd with Loz so life is sweet right now.

I'm trying to decide whether I like being single or not. Since my last attempt at a relationship was a bit of a debacle I'm not sure, but I have been feeling awful lonely lately. Not in a bad way, you can't be lonely at college...but still.

Oh shit! I said I was going to make some mix tape blogs. Darn. Now I have to go to class. Well, I'll chuck it on the to-do list.

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Words. That's all they are.



Intangible, meaningless, useless, transparent words.

Making love with his ego.

Begin at the beginning and go on until you reach the end: then stop.

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I'm allergic to cats :( I think it's official and I hate it.


When I get back to Melbourne, I'm going to make a mix tape and post it on here. Maybe you'll learn something; like how rubbish my music taste is, or you'll find the name of a song you loved but didn't know the name of.....

But I don't think I have rubbish taste. It's suitably eclectic and possibly the only thing I am perfectly satisfied with!

Today I bought such lovely shoes.

Yeah you can write me a love letter
but there's nothing to say
Don't wanna take a chance on your paper romance anyway
Yeah you can rub it off much better
if you come away

There's more choice in like.
Because even the worst things have things to love in them.
I love things so much I feel like I could float away.

We're all fucked.

We're all waiting to be discovered, to be told by someone important that we are the ones they have been looking for their entire lives. We're all looking for that lift, the words that will lead the world to become amazed by us and uncontrollably infatuated; who wouldn't want to be idolised in such a way, watch all their deepest fears simply dissipate, became fragments of a life lost to naivety. It's not fair that we have to wait, our insecurities are constantly on display for everyone to take advantage of, they want us to believe that happiness is a privilege; that if we are happy, something must have been overlooked. Seeking approval is not wrong, but seeking it from the wrong people can be dangerous, it can change our life in an instant and that beautiful innocence can never be reclaimed because now you know what is out there. Our lives are epitomised by others; we cannot exist without someone who is willing to tell you that they are merely substantial without you; that without YOU, they feel like little pieces of their heart are falling away, melting together into something they no longer recognise as their own and their life becomes mediocre without your mere presence. Hence our subtle ability to be a little more than amazing. Some move forward without a catalyst for happiness, others refuse to and are consumed by something that they cannot be without and this itself is understandable. We can only live without butterflies in our tummy for so long and yearn for the day when people will enquire as to what is wrong and you can smile at them, as though on drugs and proclaim that your life is more exquisite than you could possibly imagine. It's how long we wait that defines us....
"As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

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I'm such a demanding soul. I know it's horribly insensitive to want stuff when others have so little (that's the easter spirit!) but if I had a choice I would want some sweet-ass hair. I'm tired of mine.

I'm going camping during the Easter weekend. How original!

My Wedding Song

Maybe I'm amazed at way you love me all the time..

Don't worry Pluto, I'm not a planet either.